It’s been a long hiatus from blogging. How do I explain and why am I back? Not sure that I know but touching base with my blog is a step on the way.
In theory, all is well with me my family and my life. Instead of reveling in a good life and enjoying the trip, I find myself dissatisfied and critical. I am conscious of all the imperfections in my decisions and as a result, hesitant about moving on. One constant in my life is a need to be perfect and make the right choices. I have struggled before and moved on with less than perfect actions which turned out ok. It seems that I can’t learn that lesson however and continue to struggle.
It has been over a year since our last trip to Florence. Deterioration of both knees (bone on bone joint action) caused me to reconsider knee replacement surgery which I had dismissed. I discovered that this surgery is quite refined and the recovery is quick and changed my mind last summer. The first knee was replaced in September and I was so pleased that I scheduled the second in December.
My knees are trouble free by now although full healing will take a few more months. Originally I expected that we would be ready for travel in March, My body, however, has been telling me otherwise. It seems that fixing my knees and the bad posture that resulted from the knee problems has caused my back to complain. I have good support from a personal trainer but I still lack the feeling of recovery that I need to schedule a trip. I want to feel good before committing but something tells me that I need to move forward.
Thinking about this sticking point brought me back to blogging. There is clarification in putting my mental gymnastics into words. I hope that my mission and path will come clear as I journal the endeavor.
So that is why I am back. There are, of course, more details and issues in my life but those can wait for later. I need to be moving right now and posting this report puts me on record.