Back in Action

It’s been a long hiatus from blogging.  How do I explain and why am I back?  Not sure that I know but touching base with my blog is a step on the way.

In theory, all is well with me my family and my life.  Instead of reveling in a good life and enjoying the trip, I find myself dissatisfied and critical.  I am conscious of  all the imperfections in my decisions and as a result, hesitant about moving on.  One constant in my life is a need to be perfect and make the right choices.  I have struggled before and moved on with less than perfect actions which turned out ok.  It seems that I can’t learn that lesson however and continue to struggle.

It has been over a year since our last trip to Florence.  Deterioration of both knees (bone on bone joint action) caused me to reconsider knee replacement surgery which I had dismissed.  I discovered that this surgery is quite refined and the recovery is quick and changed my mind last summer.  The first knee was replaced in September and I was so pleased that I scheduled the second in December.

My knees are trouble free by now although full healing will take a few more months.  Originally I expected that we would be ready for travel in March,  My body, however,  has been telling me otherwise.  It seems that fixing my knees and the bad posture that resulted from the knee problems has caused my back to complain.  I have good support from a personal trainer but I still lack the feeling of recovery that I need to schedule a trip.  I want to feel good before committing but something tells me that I need to move forward.

Thinking about this sticking point brought me back to blogging.  There is clarification in putting my mental gymnastics into words.  I hope that my mission and path will come clear as I journal the endeavor.

So that is why I am back.  There are, of course, more details and issues in my life but those can wait for later.  I need to be moving right now and posting this report puts me on record.

Brugge Trip Report- The Bad.

Time flies when you are having fun: heck, it flies even when you aren’t. We’ve been back from Belgium two months now and I still haven’t put up a post on my blog.. I guess I could claim that nothing has happened- but that would be a lie. I could say that I’ve been busy which only raises questions about my priorities. Finally I could just give the whole idea of posting on my status a pass and plow forward. I’ve decided to come clean and confess that I’ve got a flaw. I can’t multitask.

Brussells Airport Hell

Brussells Airport Hell

It’s not the worst flaw I can think of. It doesn’t keep my from chipping away at my to-do list. It just slows me down because I get lost in the weeds when I try to tackle more than one thing at a time. Combine that flaw with an inability to recognize important tasks and give them priority over urgent ones, sometimes a turtle is faster than me. What keeps me from total failure is dogged persistence, my wife calls it bullheadedness. If I start something, I will finish it. Just don’t expect it tomorrow.

I can meet deadlines, pay bills on time, show up for appointments and the like because those deadlines are real and have consequences that I recognize and fear. When it is me that sets the deadlines, those deadlines lose urgency and I have a harder time staying on target (and who is afraid of me?). My inability to stay on target has kept me from posting since returning from the trip and not a lack of interest. [click to continue…]

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Settling In

Tranquil Brugge Belgium

Tranquil Brugge Belgium

On a one month trip there is a point where I stop being a visitor and start being a resident. I am still a visitor and a tourist- not even remotely a native- but my focus changes. I feel at home. I know where to find food and supplies and where the ATM’s are. I know the main landmarks and can navigate comfortably and keep my bearings while roaming. I don’t need my maps because instead of mysteries around each corner there are places I want to know better. In Brugge, today is that day. [click to continue…]

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